Right now it is only 9:45pm on Tuesday evening (the 11th of December, this 2007th year of our Lord) and I am studying for my final final of my first semester in seminary. I now remember why I was so excited to graduate from high school and college. I love school, because I love to learn. I absolutely detest finals! They are so stressful. Especially when the grade you receive on a final can affect if you will pass the class or not. Finals are part of the evil of this world. I'm totally convinced of this fact.
In 9 hrs and 13 mins (give or take a minute or two) I will be down in "the maze" taking my Old Testament exam. I have been studying my little heart out, so I'm praying that the Lord rewards that, and when I see the exam I remember what I need to remember and clearly show the professor that I know what I'm talking about, and that my grade will reflect all this study time. If not I'm going to scream, and people in Australia will be able to hear me!
I know that I know the material, so I shouldn't be worried, but I am, because I like to do well in school, and I don't feel like I have done well this semester. Yes, I know that personally it has been a tough one. I just hate that I let it get to me and affect my performance in class. I like to excell at what I attempt.
Even though I didn't excell this semester, I do know (deep down) that I did my best, all things considered, so I have rest in the knowledge that God isn't worried about the letter grade, just that I did my best. Then, in January I start afresh with new professors, a blank slate on the grade book, new classes, and 4 new chances to do my best.
I am stressed about the final, because it is a final (so serious sounding), but I think I can do it. I'm like the "Little Engine that Could". I have a big hill to climb, I'm weighted down by the knowledge of hundreds of years of OT history, but I have the strength, and I have God on my side, so I think I can do this!
Check in later to see how I did!
PS. I like this picture, it is calming, and reminds me that in the grand scheme of God, how I do on 1 little exam is not going to affect His love for me, or my love for Him, and His creation. Mountains are awesome, I can't wait to see "My" BigHorns again (Dec. 23)!!! OK...OK...back to studying!
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