So I leave at 0602 on Monday and before that I have 1 more paper to finish. I am writing a paper on the subject that is nearest and dearest to my heart- the 3 major stress disorders. So you would think that this paper would come easily to me, but alas the exact opposite is true and I think I have figured out why!
I am so passionate about the subject that trying to decide what NOT to say and to keep the paper from being longer than War and Peace is not easy. I am writing about Acute Stress, Combat Stress and Post Trauma Stress. Each of these subjects has many books devoted to it, so bringing all that down into 15 pages...not the easiest thing to do!
But once this paper is finished I can consider myself academically ready for my trip out West and I can start to relax and feel like I am going on vacation. I think finishing this project is just what I need to do to overcome all the stress I mentioned in my last post.
Another thing that is helping me get into the vacation mood- hearing my nephew playing in the background last night as I visited with my Dad (on the phone) and knowing that on TUESDAY I'll get to see him! That is in less than a week!!! I love my nephew and it has been since November and then was only a couple of days!
And yes, I am excited for the wedding. I do cherish my relationship with the bride. She may not be my "best" friend anymore, but she is still a cherished and important part of my life and I'm super excited for them and I know that they will have many wonderful years together if they remember to focus on the Lord and keep Him central in their relationship. I'm blessed to be able to celebrate her day with her.
Maybe I do wish that I could be going to the wedding with my BF or even husband, and God hasn't seen fit to bless me with that at this time, but HONESTLY that was not what was causing my confliction. For the first time in my life I'm learning to be content with my relationships. I'm working on becoming the woman the Lord wants me to be, and I'm enjoying all the relationships I have with my friends (male and female) and I'm trusting that the Lord knows the desires of my heart and I believe they are Christ honoring desires, so in due time things will happen.
It says in James that we are to ask the Lord for things expecting that they will happen. Why ask the Lord for something and then expect HIM to say no? It isn't worth wasting our breath. So, I've let HIM know my desires (quite often!) and now I just have to trust that it will happen. Till it does I need to work on growing spiritually, serving the Lord in all the ways I can at the moment and count the blessings I do have, and not worry about what I don't have.
One of those blessings is that I get to go on a week long vacation to see people that I love and visit a part of the country that I love. But first, I MUST FINISH THIS PAPER...
-ME-
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