Yesterday I went to see the doctor. I went because I've been tired, weak and achy for the past 10 days and I thought I just needed to adjust a few of my meds. and that would solve the problem. Well the doctor ran a few tests, stole some of my blood and then told me I have mono. Yep, I have mono. That dreaded bug that means I'm tired, weak and achy and even on meds I can expect the symptoms to last for a few weeks. Not the news I was expecting or praying for.
What it means is that my body is FORCING me to slow WAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY down for awhile. I don't do well with slowing down. I have a lot of things I like to do and need to do each day.
It has only been about 30 hours and already I am going stir crazy, yet I am learning to appreciate sitting in my hammock and listening to the sounds of my new neighborhood. Every once in awhile I will relax for 10-15 minutes, but this bug requires that I spend the majority of my day relaxing; if not actually asleep.
Another downside of mono would be the drugs I'm on. They make me hungry, and I am getting a LOT less exercise, NOT A GOOD combo! Once I fight this thing I'll be back to my normal exercise routine, so I am trying not to fret.
As annoying as mono can be, and it is quite frustrating, I did spend more time in prayer and Bible study today than I usually have time for. I don't even know how long I spent praying for everyone I know in the military and their families. That is the positive aspect of this "forced quit" my body gave me.
I am forced to take the time that I should allocate anyway to commune with my dear, holy Lord. So I guess in the long run this is going to turn out to not be a crisis but a good thing. It slows me down and it means I'll miss some things, but anytime that I spend with my Lord is time well spent.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Questions
I can't believe that it is August already, much less 1/3 of the way over! Where does the time go? Some days seem long and the nights when I can't sleep, when I lie in my bed alone, I think the sun will NEVER rise. Yet, the weeks fly by and 2009 is well over half way gone! Time has a way of passing and I wonder if I'm being a good steward.
Am I serving the Lord and the people around me as much as I can? Am I making the most of these crazy weeks? What can I do to be a better blessing to my family, friends and everyone else the Lord puts in my path?
As I've been working on this book I'm writing and putting together my journal entries from college I see that I've been through a LOT. College for me was not the carefree time of learning and growing that it is for lots of students. I can't help but wonder, am I responding to my situation in the best light? Is there something else I should be doing?
I don't claim to have all the answers, and to know how to best respond to evil. That is not the point of my book. My book is about honesty. Here is what happened to me, here is how I handled it, now learn and hopefully do better. I do think I made some decent decisions in college. I never did drugs, that is one thing I can tell my kids someday.
Yet, how do I move on. Christ has forgiven me, but have I forgiven myself? Is that guilt and shame still keeping me from being totally committed to God's plan for my life?
These are the things that go through my mind as I can't sleep. Very few of them have been answered. A final question that I think about on the long, sleepless nights is: How I can be a better friend, daughter, sister, Christian tomorrow than I was today and how I can be a better steward of this fast paced life?
Because as much as I may wish that the weeks would slow I don't have that power, I just have to do my best to give 100% at 100% of the things I do each day. For I serve not myself and not my friends or my family but I serve my Lord. Everything I do should be an offering to Him.
Am I serving the Lord and the people around me as much as I can? Am I making the most of these crazy weeks? What can I do to be a better blessing to my family, friends and everyone else the Lord puts in my path?
As I've been working on this book I'm writing and putting together my journal entries from college I see that I've been through a LOT. College for me was not the carefree time of learning and growing that it is for lots of students. I can't help but wonder, am I responding to my situation in the best light? Is there something else I should be doing?
I don't claim to have all the answers, and to know how to best respond to evil. That is not the point of my book. My book is about honesty. Here is what happened to me, here is how I handled it, now learn and hopefully do better. I do think I made some decent decisions in college. I never did drugs, that is one thing I can tell my kids someday.
Yet, how do I move on. Christ has forgiven me, but have I forgiven myself? Is that guilt and shame still keeping me from being totally committed to God's plan for my life?
These are the things that go through my mind as I can't sleep. Very few of them have been answered. A final question that I think about on the long, sleepless nights is: How I can be a better friend, daughter, sister, Christian tomorrow than I was today and how I can be a better steward of this fast paced life?
Because as much as I may wish that the weeks would slow I don't have that power, I just have to do my best to give 100% at 100% of the things I do each day. For I serve not myself and not my friends or my family but I serve my Lord. Everything I do should be an offering to Him.
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