There are days, and today is one of them where I really just want to sock it to Adam and Eve for screwing everything up. They had it made! They were living in a paradise that is better than we could ever imagine, there were able to walk around with GOD, and the food...AMAZING! And I bet Eve never got fat in The Garden. And "The Curse" the monthly visitor of every female...yeah it didn't exist.
And they RUINED it for the rest of us! All they had to do was avoid 1 little tree...they had a garden full of trees and plants, each yummier than the last. And they ruined it! I know, I know Adam and Eve get a bum rap, and I should forgive them, because God has. Still, today is one of those days where it is hard.
Life is full of so many miraculous, wonderful moments. It is full of times that take your breath away (in a good sense). Life is also full of tough times as well. Right now, I'm experiencing both and it is a conundrum.
There is so much to enjoy in my life right now: I have an amazing SO, wonderful friends that have my back through all of the ups and downs. I have a family that loves me and would (and has done) anything for me. I have a new to me car that I'm enjoying, and I have a church full of people that care. Not to mention I have a lot of exciting work on my book to do, and for the most part I'm healthy.
Yeah, I have the R.A. and I'm just getting over a bout of tonsilitis. But, I'm healthy. I can see, hear, touch, smell, swallow, run, skip, flip. Sometimes not as quickly or easily as other times, but overall I'm healthy.
As much good as there is in my life right now, there is also the flip side.
I NEED a new job, like YESTERDAY and that isn't an easy thing to find in this economy. As I was telling a friend, I find myself in the over qualified for many jobs, but under qualified and under experienced for others. Not cool. That, and waitressing is out because my joints couldn't handle a job like that. BAH HUMBUG. So, I'm applying to anything that looks like a possibility and then I'm praying. Something will turn up, God has always provided in the past, and I know HE will continue to do so. It might not be in the way I expect or want, but HE promised to take care of me.
One of my childhood friends is pregnant with her first child and right now she is praying and watching her husband fight for his life. He has a rare and deadly bacterial infection and is in a critical stage. I am also praying, and I know that prayer is HUGE. Prayer is walking up to God and saying, "Please help". Asking GOD--just take a moment to process that. Yet, it doesn't always seem like much, we humans want to DO something.
So life is good, it is very good, but not always easy.
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