Concentration

Normally I'm one of those people that can focus on the job at hand, regardless of what is going outside of my focus. I'm pretty good at compartmentalizing. It is a skill I honed freshmen year of college, and it is how I was able to keep my charade up for so long, before I finally had to tell someone about my rape (and once I tore down that wall, it was down!)

This week has not been one of them. This week I have not been able to focus on my studies for anything. It is not cool. First I was sick (not to gross people out but) and it is hard to study when you are having to urp every few minutes and the world is spinning out of control.

Today, I'm finally feeling better and thinking that "YES- 48 hours to just study! I can still do well!" and then...BOOM...I get a call that someone dear to me is in the ER. So, I spend the afternoon waiting for news, and not able to concentrate on Augustine and crowd. And then I get another call, and another call, and I have to call others and share the news. So, it has not been as studious a day as I'd like. But I have tomorrow, right!?!

My goal is still to ace my finals, I just wish that it had been a more productive week leading up to it. But even so, I expect that I will do well, because I don't accept any less from myself. School is something that I generally do well at. I can't sing, draw or do ballet, but I can study and focus (generally).

Life is never as simple as I'd like it to be!

-Paige-