2009 Already!

Can you believe it, it is 2009! Where does the time go? It doesn't seem that long ago that I was eager to move out here and begin my seminary journey, and now I'm about to start my last semester. So much has already happened since August of 2007. Some of it really good, a lot of it not so good.

I hosted a New Year's Eve party, and it was a lot of fun. We watched Star Trek, Robin Hood: Men in Tights, and hung out. We had snacks and pizza. It wasn't too exciting, but it was nice. It got me to thinking about how wonderful friends are, and how my different friends play different roles in my life.

I have a few friends that I am very close with and feel comfortable sharing many things with, but I don't have that 1 friend that I share everything with, except Christ. And for now, I think that is how it should be. I'd feel too vulnerable if someone knew EVERYTHING about me, I didn't know the same in return. Maybe I'm not trusting enough, I don't know.

Yet, even though I don't have that 1 person that I'll completely open up to, I have someone even better, and that is Christ. Christ is totally worthy of our trust. He is the best confidant a girl could have. Christ will never let us down, and He will never disrespect us. Being able to run to Christ with everything, good and bad is what keeps me going from day to day, and at night when I can't sleep.

I don't think I would make a very good atheist or Buddhist, or Christian Scientist, because I'm too dependent on Christ these days. I'd be beyond lost without Him. I hear friends talk about how much they miss their spouse when he or she is gone for a few days (or for over a year on deployments) and while I don't have that relationship I can somewhat understand, because I know how it feels to miss the person you love most.

But for me, that was because I left Christ. He was there, waiting for me to return. Feeling like I was without Him, because I ran away was the worst part of everything I've been through in the past 7 years. The relationship I have with Him is one of total dependence. Life is hard enough as it is, but without my Lover, Best Friend, Accountability, etc. I am not complete, I feel alone.

Being surrounded by friends on New Year's Eve, and thinking of those that are up in Heaven, I was reminded of just how important friendship is, and just how wonderful Christ is as my friend.