Right now all I feel like doing is whining. Whining on here and whining to God. I'm so tired of being exhausted. I'm sick and tired of waking up feeling more exhausted than when I went to bed. I'm so tired of of taking a mega dose of sleeping pills and then not sleeping (at which point, I'm not only exhausted but I'm sick as well, like today). I'm not a jealous person, but I do get envious of people that can sleep and wake up feeling refreshed. It has been so long since I've had that feeling. I yearn for it, like a spouse yearns for a deployed love.
Yet, even in all this I know that God is still here. Yes, He hasn't given me the rest that I so urgently yearn for, but I know that He is still God and He is still in charge. It is at times like today that I can show my obedience and turn toward Him, and seek Him and seek His strength. God has promised me in Isaiah 40: 29-31
29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint. (copied from www.biblegateway.com)
It is my job to remember the promises of my Lord, and to turn to Him, to seek Him and His strength. Even when I am fully rested I need to seek His strength. If I'm going to be the servant that He wants me to be, than I have to ALWAYS be depending upon Him. God is not just our shelter, hope, Jehovah in the hard times, but he is also our everything in the good times as well. We need to turn to Him just as often in those mountain top experiences. God is our Master, our All Sufficient One, at all times, regardless of our circumstances.
So, yes I feel like whining, and maybe I did a little bit in the beginning, but more than whining I need to remember the promises that my God has given me, and cling to those. So today I'm clinging to Isaiah 40:29-31 and trying to think cheerful thoughts.
In Christ,
Paige
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