Seeing God in the S**T

I know, a provocative title, but it is what I've been having to do lately. I have been HUNTING for months now for a job and NOTHING. We can't afford for this to continue. To add insult to injury I ponied up and went down to the unemployment office today and due to a technicality I'm not eligible! I'm a hard-working citizen that has paid taxes, that is out looking (HARD) and the government isn't willing to help, while they pay MILLIONS to people that take their check and go home and sit on their duffs and don't even try???

I WANT a job, I WANT to have the satisfaction of earning my keep. It is Biblical as well as American. I'm trying. I just need some help. It makes me wonder, if God can provide me with such an amazing husband, wouldn't it be even easier for Him to provide me with a source of income, especially since He has said "No work no eat" (my paraphrase)? I'm trying to do it His way, I just need some help from somewhere!

At times like this, it is hard to see through the frustration, disappointment (of losing out on yet another job) and worry. I know God has a plan, I just wish He'd show a bigger part of the picture. I know that He will provide, I just want to make the provision easier on Him. Why hasn't He provided yet?

I'm a hard worker, with good references, a high level of education and no major skeletons in my closet. That should set me up for many open doors, even in this economy. So, why am I forced to wade through this unemployment, no one wants me S*** where God is seemingly elsewhere?

BAH HUMBUG, but life is not easy. In the end, yes Heaven is my reward, but I wish the journey to Heaven was just a little bit easier, and that God was just a little easier to see. I'm trying to focus on Him and see this through His eyes, but it is tough.

Dear Lord,
I love You and praise You for loving me, protecting me, guiding me and providing for me. You deserve all the praise and glory, You and You alone. I come before Your throne to ask that You help me to quickly find the job You have for me, and to allow me to start working there ASAP. You know what our financial situation is, and You know how I yearn to do things Your way, and working is Your way. Help me out. Help me to stay focused on You, even through all this S*** and help me to use this time to draw closer to D and closer to You.
You are amazing, wonderful, just, almighty and perfect. Thank You for all the ways You work in my life each and every day. Thank You for forgiving my sins, for purging me and making me holy once more. Thank you for your blood and for the cross, for Heaven.

Through the Lamb's blood I pray. Amen

-JP-