Sweet Peace

There is darkness all around you, even in the middle of the day. The blackness of your soul, the depths of your fear, your pain, your feelings of worthlessness overwhelm even the brightest of sunny days. You are just trying to make it the next 5 minutes.

You look around and see all the things in the house that could help you end this miserable existence you have found yourself mired in. You wonder which is the easiest, which would be the best option. Ending it all seems like the answer.

Yet, you don't move. Your thoughts are switched to your friends. You know they care about you, even if they don't understand what you are feeling. You think of your parents and all that they would have to deal with. Then you remember a song your Grandma used to sing to you. A song that is from the days BEFORE. For you live in a BEFORE and AFTER existence.

The song says "Jesus love you this I know. For the Bible tells me so." A bit silly for an adult, but still the words reach you. You wonder if Jesus really does love you, and if so, WHY? And you call out "WHY?"

In your heart you hear "Because I love you humans enough to give you choice, to give you free will. I hate what you do with it. I hate how you hurt each other. I hate that it cost my Son his life. But, I love you and so does He. It is why He volunteered to go to the cross. I am God and I love you. Let me help you."

All of a sudden you feel a small sense of peace. You are still mired in darkness, your problems are not over, but you feel like maybe there is light. You feel the beginning of healing taking place. You no longer look around for ways to end it all, but you listen wanting to hear the voice more.

You know the journey is just beginning, but at least it isn't ending. That is God's promise. Jesus loves you and will help you. Yes YOU!! It doesn't matter the darkness, it doesn't matter if you are a victim or a perpetrator, Jesus is bigger, Jesus will guide you and help you to learn to walk in His way, to know His peace. It is offered for EVERYONE.

On that thought you get up and finally you see the beauty of the sun again.