Learning Patience

God is always trying to teach us stuff, and is always desiring that we improve ourselves and work to become more like Him. That should be our desire as well. Our biggest goal in life should be to reflect Christ better each day.

That is my goal in life, yet there are times when I feel like it be momentarily better to have things MY way, and to not have to learn the lessons God is teaching me. Some days I just don't want the hassle. Today is one of them. God is obviously trying to instill more patience in me, and I don't want to wait on the lesson! I want to be more patient NOW (somewhat ironic I know!).

I found out about this website: www.yearbookyourself.com and it is a pretty cool website. You upload a picture of yourself and then you can play with it and make it look like an old school (60's, 70's, 80's, 90's) yearbook photo. I thought that would be fun, and then I could use the photo as my profile pic on facebook and other sites.

Well, I started uploaded a picture to use 30 minutes ago and it still isn't uploaded yet. The photo is less than 3 mb, so I don't what the computer is finding so hard to do! It is taking forever, and of course I'm having a hard time walking away and using my time wisely as I wait.

I pray and ask God to help me become the woman that He wants me to be, and then He gives me chances like this, and I revert back to my old self, my old, impatient, want it now self. This is frustrating! I want to be better, do better, but I struggle. I wonder if this is similar to the struggles Paul talked about. Our spirits are willing, but our flesh is weak. We want to be better, we want to grow, but the old, immature nature rears its head and makes the struggle that much harder.

Patience...it is such a hard virtue for me to instill in myself. I try and I try to be more patient, but I run out before the situation resolves itself. But, I'm going to keep praying and asking God to help me develop my patience, even if the lessons are not so much fun. The best things in life come from the hardest, most painful circumstances (many times).

-JLK/PRT-

PS....it still isn't uploaded...so I'm going to go force myself to leave the room!