Wondering

Sometimes I wonder, and I'm being totally serious here, but sometimes I wonder just how important things are to God.

I believe that God created the universe. I'm not totally convinced that He did it in 6 24 hour days, but I believe that He could have. I believe that man was created perfect, but Adam and Eve chose to sin and since we are all descendants of Adam, we all have a sinful nature. I believe that since we are sinful and can't make it to Heaven on our own, God came down to earth as Jesus, lived a perfect life (because he was from Eve not Adam) and sacrificed himself on the cross, died and defeated eternal death by coming back to life. I believe that Christ is in heaven now, with all the believers that have lived and died. I believe that He is coming back some day. I believe in Hell and that if you chose to not accept Christ's gift, you will go to Hell. Sorry- but it is the truth.

That is what I believe. If you follow my logic it means that Christ loves us-he died for us, that is pretty big love. And I believe that He sends the Holy Spirit into our lives to help us, because this life isn't easy. I believe that some things are pretty important to God, and others are maybe not so much.

Purity is one of those things I wonder about. I believe (or maybe I just need to believe, but it boils down to the same thing these days for me) that if my purity (sexually here folks) was that important to God, he would not have allowed me to be raped brutally by 2 bastards. He is GOD, he controls the universe. Yes, we have free will, but He still could have stopped it. Caused it to rain, so those guys would choose to stay inside-they still have their choice. But, God chose to remain out of the picture.

If my purity was as important as church people want you think it is, than God could have protected me, and he could protect the millions of other women (and men) that are raped every year. It is low ball estimated that 25% of women will experience some form of sexual assault in her lifetime. That is a HUGE #. How important is purity to God?

And if it isn't that important to Him-where do I draw the line. I'm not the type to go out and sleep with every Tom, Dick and Harry I saw, but neither am I a wedding day virgin. I've had sex and some of it (most of it) has been by choice-my choice. Yet all we hear about these days is how "True Love Waits"

Don't get me wrong, I think it is great to wait till marriage. Your virginity is something that you can only give away once, so choose wisely. And after that, remember that no matter what Hollywood says, or what your schoolmates say, you do give part of yourself to every person you have sex with. AND-if that is not enough there are always STI's to worry about. If you only ever sleep with your spouse, than the chances of contracting an STI go WAY WAY down. That is a good thing. There are enough ways to get sick--why go looking for them!?!

So, I'm not advocating a sex free for all, I'm advocating wisdom, but I am wondering how important it REALLY is to God and I'm finally getting around to asking Him "why?" I've never asked Him why it happened to me, because that felt selfish, why not me I would say. But I think I want an answer.