The Sun Came Up

Yesterday's blog reflected how I was feeling. I had received lots of bad news, and then had some friends call me with some really exciting news. So I was trying to be joyful for them, while not being very successful at dealing whit my own disappointments.

Guess what!?! The sun came up today and it was bright and clear. Today was a beautiful day. I also did something that I maybe should have done yesterday. I sat down and wrote out a list. I'm including it here.

BAD STUFF IN MY LIFE:

sin
bills
bills
and more bills
No job & I'm running out of ideas
R.A.
Nightmares
Panic attacks
I was raped 9 years ago
I love 1.5 hrs from my closest friends
Lonliness
Fear
Stress
I'm fat
I'm throwing up often & can't figure out why, & yet I'm gaining weight


BLESSINGS IN MY LIFE

Jesus loves me
My husband loves me
My family loves me
My friends love me
I'm making new friends in my new home
Our dog loves me
Our cat loves me
I love my church
I have a new phone that I LOVE
There are interesting shows on tv and in my DVD/Movie collection
I have a pretty (black and and white) comforter on our bed
We have a warm and cozy house
I'm not starving
I have a reliable Honda
I have a job (2 days/month)
My husband has a full time job
The Packers are in the Super Bowl
I get to pick up our wedding pictures on Monday
I'm a Trekkie
I have lots of yummy books to read
I'm smart
I can still move around fairly normally
It snowed and looks pretty outside
I got to wear a beautiful dress at our wedding
I was surrounded by people that love us on our wedding
Many people traveled quite a distance just to come to our wedding
I'm so smart I know that the Packers are the best team to cheer for!
Every morning God sends me a new picture in the sky, and he ends each day with one as well.


I could have gone on but I stopped at this point, because it was obvious to me that I have way more blessings in my life than I have fears or hardships. It was good though for me to take the time to actually count my blessings. It helped me get out of my dark space that I was in from yesterday's roller-coaster.

Sometimes it just takes seeing the sun come up again for me to remember that it is true. We do live joyfully after all, if we live in Christ. Yes, dark times will come. Dark moods will hit. Times will come when I feel abandoned by God. Yet, those are just feelings. The truth is that God will never leave me, nor will He forsake me. He never even turns away from me. I'm always right in the palm of his hand. :-)

So, thanks for bearing with me through yesterday's disappoints. I'm glad to be able to say that I'm feeling much more myself, and I have God, my husband, my parents and my family to thank for helping me get re-focused on the truth